As you (should) know by now I registered for my very first full marathon last week. I'm registered to run the Twin Cities Marathon on October 2nd. My training for that race began on Monday. I was home w/ sick ones so I skipped that day. Off to a bad start!!! Right?! Then Tuesday I ran 2 miles, which weren't very pretty. Yesterday I was set to run 3, which I did (on national running day!) but again I struggled. I haven't had a good run since the Lincoln Half for some reason. And yesterday just before I left work to do my run before getting my kids my mother in law and boss informed me that there is a company trip to the BAHAMA'S the last week of September into the first weekend of October. Which you may realize is WHEN I'M REGISTERED TO RUN A MARATHON! Crap. Crap. Crap!
I was pretty bummed I hadn't talked to my MIL before registering. I didn't think about that - but next time I do anything that takes a large committment you can bet I will be checking with my mother in law first to make sure there are no Carribean Vacations in our future!!! After I left work to go run I felt pretty let down. I had it all built up in my head that this was the race! I had tried and tried to actually talk myself OUT of running a full marathon this year. I kept saying I don't have time, I'm insane, I can't do this, this is a bad time, don't register. Yet I googled and googled and googled races and reviews and did research and asked other runners and I found the Twin Cities Marathon and it felt perfect. So after I got the OK from the hubbs I registered. I almost feel like there's a higher power at work telling me I should listen to that little voice saying I shouldn't run a full this year, I don't have time, I'm insane, I can't do this, this is a bad time! So I reflected on this conundrum during my run. Another bad run on a string of bad runs. It was hot. It was windy. (the weather channel said sustained winds of 30mph, w/ gusts of 55). But I did it ANYWAY! After googling some more... I found the Des Moines marathon.
The Des Moines Marathon is October 16th. It has some hills early in the race but many runners have commented they got a PR. (personal record). I'm not afraid of hills. I just don't want to run a "hilly" marathon. (which excludes Omaha all together). I'm not registering right away for the DM marathon but I have a feeling I will. Joe agreed it would be a lot more fun to go to the Bahamas then watch two kids alone while I went off to run a marathon alone. Two weeks later we could all make the short 2hr45min trip to Des Moines and this way I could have some fans cheering me on! After a while I started seeing this as possibly a good sign. Maybe God wasn't saying I should run a marathon... I just shouldn't run TCM. For whatever reason. But I can say I will enjoy being on the beach with my little ones and Joe and being able to play in the sand with them! My family makes me whole and I love building memories with them. I just can't pass up this chance. So my marathon training will actually start in two weeks! Which gives me a little more time to get my runs back to a good place.
I have a 10k race on Saturday morning. I am not looking forward to it actually. Mostly because I've had such a hard time with running lately. I know this race is HILLY. I ran it 2 years ago on a team and did pathetic. I think my time was 1:06:?? Which is bad. My last 10k finish time was 59:24. I will NOT be beating that time for a new PR. But I sure as hell better beat 1:06:??
But with all this complaining I keep on going. I don't know why. I think I just refuse to give up.
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